Dear Readers

When did you know you were first in love? Are you married to this person now? Am I still in the "cupcake" phase? Do I just think I love him because I have no idea what love is? I hope you answer. I would love to learn more about you guys. My friends think that it is all happening too fast.

Dear Andrew

Is it too soon to know that I love you? When we were saying good bye yesterday I almost said it, but then I stopped myself. I have never been "in love" before. The feelings I have for you are like no other. I do not know what it is about you. I think about you everyday, all day. You are everything I could every want. I can not imagine my life with out you. I feel like you complete me. We have not even known each other for a month, but when I think of  you, I think of love. I asked my friends and they think it is too soon. However, I always think about my coworker and her fiance. They've only known each other for two months. I asked her why she got engaged so soon and she said when you know, you know. Babe, I know. I know you're the man I want to spend the rest of my life with.

Today, I got a letter from the Marines. They told me about a job that really interested me. You said if I really wanted to do that I could. You would support me. Honestly, I would love to do that but I know it would take me away from you and that is what kills me.

We drove to a different parking lot today.. one more secluded. We ended up making out. You slowly slipped your hands underneath my yoga pants and started pleasing me. I wouldn't let you finish me but I came close and you are amazing. Next it was my turn,. I felt you squirm and grip as I gave you a blow job. It was the first time I had given head since November so it took me a while to get used to things, It was also the first time I had given head in that vehicle so I had to get used to the positioning. Once I got used to is though I was able to fully please you. I did not stop sucking until every thing was out of you. I loved the feeling of you in my mouth and the feeling of you squeezing me. I can not wait to do it again. You don't even taste bad.

On our way back to where you stay. You said "hey" then "never mind" you did that another time before I was like "what?!" then you looked me dead in the eyes and said "I love you" That is when I knew 100% that I loved you. You are the first man I have ever truly loved. I would not trade it for anything.

Love,
Tiffany

Dear Andrew

Your new deodorant does not make you have a rash and that is good. We talked more about moving and getting married. I told you that I would not move in with you for at least another year because of college and you said you were okay with that. I still can not believe how blessed I am to have you in my life. You are truly an amazing man. You make my heart beat ridiculously fast and my stomach flutters when I see you. You are the cutest and do the most adorable things ever. I also love how warm you are! It isn't cold here but you are like cuddly warm, ya know? It is "late" and I have work in the morning! I can not wait to see you again.
Forever and Always,
Tiffany

Dear Andrew

We hung out again yesterday. I didn't forget your deodorant! I hope this one doesn't give you a rash. You asked me to come to a shooting event and I plan on going. I can't promise I'll be any good but I'll do my best. We cuddled (kinda) in my car and talked and it was great. Your eyes were a different color of blue. Like a sky blue. When we kissed you bit my lip. That drove me crazy. You already just randomly bite me and that drives me up a wall! Then you bit my lip and I was gone! We talked about sex for a bit then you said you don't use condoms and I said then we aren't having sex until we are married and you were totally fine with that. Speaking of wedding.. You set the date for our wedding, in November. I'm not sure if I'm ready to commit to that though. I reactivated my account for that website and it said you were active fourteen hours ago... That makes me feel really sad on the inside. I have really strong emotions for you and you're still logging on to the website. When I think of you, I think of forever. I would absolutely love to be with you for the rest of my life. I don't know why you're still logging on. I don't want to bring it up though. I don't want to scare you off. I just hope soon you deactivate your account too. Then I know you're serious about our future. I know we haven't known each other long but you are the one who talks the most about us getting married and being together forever.
Sincerely,
Tiffany

Dear Andrew

I have no idea how we are going to explain how we met to anyone... mainly our families. I guess we will get to that obstacle when it comes. We first started talking March 27. By the 30th you were already asking if I would move all over the world with you. I thought things were going too fast at the time. You said you did not want to scare me off but it was definitely scaring me. I did not tell you that because i wanted to see where things would go. It was also hard for me to feel emotions toward someone I had only texted and not really met yet. We finally officially met on my birthday. You are the best present ever. I remember pulling into the parking lot and wishing you were ugly and you looked as great as you did in your pictures. When you came running to my car and jumped into the passenger seat, it was as if you belonged there. Nothing was weird nothing was awkward it was normal. I gave you your lunch and you ate while we talked until I had to go. You exceeded my expectations. 

I do not even mind that our visit are contained to sitting in my car. It allows us to take things slow and truly get to know one another.

The second time I was able to see you we only had thirty minutes. Which was fine. Seeing you always makes my day. We talked about our futures. While our career paths are generally the same our jobs would be different. You were worried we would never see each other. You shouldn't worry though. I have three more years before I even graduate from college. We can figure out all the details before then. I know we will make things work because you are my Prince Charming ;P 

I saw you again two days later. Except this time it was for a long time. It was for almost three hours. Some how we managed to keep the conversation going. It was great. We showed pictures of family members and household pets. You are such a cat person, it is adorable. Today was the first time I realized how amazingly blue your eyes are. They are so crystal clear. You have beautiful eyes. We kissed for the first time today. You pulled me over and kissed me. You made my tummy turn upside down. That has never happened before. You are perfect.

Sincerely,

Tiffany.

P.s. I hope I don't forget to buy you deodorant.

Dear Jeff

I met you in August and you were gone by December. What could I expect? You are a soldier that is what soldiers do. I remember all the mini dates we had and the amazing sex. We experimented with each other. I did not think you leaving would have such an impact. When you told me you were leaving I was ready for you to go. However, still months later I think about you all the time. You send videos of your new adventures and I positively love it. You have become such a drinker now. That is not the Jeff I knew. I guess we all change when we get new privileges.

When I told you I would wait for you, you said I would find someone who was better than you and someone who would take me on real dates. You hoped I would find someone special someone who was meant for me. Well Jeff, I honestly think I have found him.

His name is Andrew. He is going to school here. Not the same school I go to but, you know what I mean. He is super sweet. He leaves in August. He said he would visit me and he would pay for me to visit him no matter where he goes. I honestly think I have met the one. He evokes such a strong emotion in me. He makes my tummy flutter and my cheeks flush. I have not known him long and I know you will think that I am foolish for even thinking about spending the rest of my life with him, but that is how I feel. 

Sincerely,

Girl #2

Dear Readers

I created this blog to keep track of my emotions. I have realized that I change how I feel too frequently. So bare with me. I also plan on using this blog to keep track of time. My days have started to run together and I hate when that happens. I will obviously be changing details in the blog so it is hard to figure out who I am, where I am, and who I am talking about. I hope you enjoy, as I try to figure out how I feel.